Ok, so here I am again sitting at my computer blogging after some time. It has been a while since I felt any urge to ink any thoughts. Not that I have not been thinking recently, but just that there are too many things happening at anyone time, that all my thoughts are polluted and entangled.

I wouldn't say that I sorted it out entirely, but I think I have managed some degree of clarity over the past weeks of moodiness.

For a start, I shall start to moderate my expectations of people and things. Short of losing all expectations, I shall just tolerate all the nonsenses that people pile on me. I realised that it is really no use yearning all the demands, when people are not interested in fulfilling them. I think to a certain sense, it is the same with myself. The failure of an event that I could not control had been a constant bugbear that plague my waking moments. Yet, when things are over, I realised that things are totally laughable.

I suppose the other thing that really set me down was having some family issues. I start to find a huge rift between my parents and myself. Perhaps i have never been one that is fillial. But I have tried to understand the way my folks have been approaching life. And I find that there is a great deviation of what I think it good. Perhaps this has to do again with my expectations of people whom matter. I will just have to spend some time mending the rift...

I have been looking at the list of new year resolution that I made. I realised that I am nowhere near any of those. It is really sheer laziness, that I am no longer progressing ahead. The inertia increases with each day of inactivity, and I am drenched with the mecurial slug...

Ah... Perhaps this month is a real good month to start things afresh. To hit the restart key, and close all running programmes for a faster, less loaded system.